I hate infomercials! They are one of THE most annoying things to me. I don't really get it either. Is it because I'm acutely aware of the scams behind everyone that I see? Or is because I know people will go for it, spending needless money on items through the phone, items that you can just wait to get from a Wal-mart or Wal-Greens??? (I know, there are no doubt other stores that sell infomercial stuff, but those are the only two I'm presently aware of.)
But, back to my confusion on the level of how much I despise infomercials. It's a mystery. I can endure other majorly STUPID things that fly across the tv screen. But, something as simple as trying to sell something by phone just sets me off. Perhaps you think I'm a strange person with anger issues of some sort. Well, maybe I am. I have been told that I have unresolved anger problems most likely. But I'm still not sure on that. All I know, is that I need to stop ranting on this one topic or I'm going to throw a pie at someone.
Well now, back to the short little subject this little blog post was supposed to be about. I titled it, 'What luck?". Why? Well, basically to say, if there is any luck in this world, it seems to have forgotten me in the areas that I might need or really want it.
Like today for instance. There is snow outside. Now, you might be wondering why I'm upset at this. It is January after all, and in America January is one of the winter months. And since winter normally means cold and snow. Why am I complaining? BECAUSE! Today I was supposed to go to the DMV to take a driver's test. But, that was cancelled because of the sudden snow. Now, it's not too much, but since it's still so new, the roads are not properly cleared. Hence, the reason as to why I cannot go and take a driving test. Which brings me back to my luck problem.
When Christmas came, there was no snow. So, I say I had bad luck with my wish for snow on Christmas. And now, today, there IS snow. Today was the one day that I was hoping for no snow. But, did that happen? No. Why? Because, I have either mostly bad or no luck at all. Or, maybe my problem is that I sometimes find myself thinking about my luck too much?
In any case, all I wanted to state was that I have no luck at all. I could go into sad sob childhood stories about where I never even got a chance to win this, or that. Or how I never got to spend money on those weird fair games. Or how I was so close to winning a whipped cream pie eating contest. I could make you cry a like. Ok..maybe I couldn't make you cry a lake of sympathy but you'd probably cry a like of mirth at the fact of how pathetic I am. **grins** Oh well, that's me. What can I do?
Nothing. I think that's the point. In all honesty I can do nothing to improve my luck or take away from it. Luck really has nothing to do with life. If life existed on luck we'd be forever doomed. Unless we all had really good poker faces. If luck ruled our lives, I don't wanna know the outcome. I find it frightening just attempting to think on what it could bring.
Like: doctors when they're operating on you? Or pharmasists, making all those happy pills for you? Like say, heart medication? And not just that, if everything were luck and nothing at all had to do with skill or any other attribute that helps you along with life. I'd never get in a car again! Because, only if you were lucky would you know how to drive a car. Only if you were lucky would you make it onto the street. Only if you were lucky would you make it to work, or the hospital, or school. Or anywhere you were trying to go. I could probably go on for a while more. But I won't, because I know my short attention span will start thinking about something else if I dare to go on for another few lines about this.
All I wanted to point out is that, despite everything 'unlucky' that seems to happen to me, I'm glad that our lives are not ruled by luck. I'm glad that in all acutallity. Something far greater and more powerful ordains over our lives. Something that so many of us refuse to believe because we cannot fit it into the small spectrum of our understanding. Something that some even try to make out to be created by 'luck' or 'chance'. It's so hard for us to believe in it sometimes because it is both within the confines of our reality and without. It is both reality and naught. It is a lord of time yet exists beyond
times grasps. It can see a thousand years as easily as it can a thousand milliseconds.
This, is a being that many refuse to even try to consider, that it may exist. This is a being, that has done something that dumbfounds us even more with the profoundness of what it did. It loved and is love. It showed, was willing, didn't have to, could've ignored and just scrapped, us.
But...it didn't...HE didn't. It who is I AM, He who is not He. Father who neither male or of mankind. Being, who is love, reality, time, understanding, peace, mercy, love, grace. Being who only wishes for love and willingness to try to understand and faith, from us. Only these simple, little things. But...with our minds and our ever present yearning to control and understand in our way and no other. We, deny, shun, disbelieve, sometimes hate, love conditionally, or think ourselves greater and smarter than it. Than He.
By many names he is known. Papa, Aba, Father, Yahwey (did not spell that right), Lord, Master, Savior....GOD....or..something as simple as 'daddy'.
He does not look down and decree that your life should be ruled by luck and chance. He is not a being who only exists for himself. He is not a being who creates on a whim and disregards in the same way.
He is ALL powerful, ALL loving, ALL knowing.
But..when pain comes, or our 'luck' fails us. We deny everthing and cast it away into a pit far deeper than what hell could bring. A pit so deep he can only keep trying to help us reach it and draw it back. Make it smaller. It's a pit that can't even exist within our being. Even more terrible then nothing.
If you disagree with me, that's ok. If you hate me suddenly...well (ouch, a little harsh?) I'm going to say that's ok but won't say I won't feel it. If you think I'm a mad silly person and find me amusing, that's ok too. That means you might keep reading! :D I'm not asking you to agree, I'm not really asking you to hear or understand what I'm saying. But maybe I am asking for you to listen? Mabye I am asking you to at least read it if you stumble on this page and not run away or decide it's too boring for your taste? Come on, give it a chance. Or, at least me for starters?
I don't know what else I should say. Or if I should say anything more right now. I'll give you a chance to digest this or whatever you're going to do with it.
So, I shall part with this. God is watching. Just like Santa only with a far better gift.
I am
A God project
Storm out~
Thank you.
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